Blur Kingdom

Dear readers,
today I'm feeling very emo so just try not to read this post!

This is something I kept to myself over the past few months. I just can't keep it to myself anymore so I want to express it here. Hehe

Two stories involving two people I knew and I will just name them No. 1 and No. 2.

STORY ONE:

I knew No 1 since form 1. Btw, shes a year older than me. I always thought she was helpful and a really nice person. She supports me a lot in everything and if she asks for a favor, its like a must for me to help her (I don't want her to get disappointed and stuff) hehe After my probational term as a prefect that year, she treated me as a close junior and we ended that year happily. During the holidays, we kept in touch once in a while. I missed her during the holidays till the holidays ended, everything changed.

I started the year quite well and I very enthusiastic some more. I went and search for her the first day forgetting that she already went to morning session. hehe The first few months, we were still quite close but only till March, when we got busier with our own stuffs. Then, we went from greeting to nothing. So I ended the year happily with my juniors but I did not bother what happened to her. My last year in afternoon session was so nice.

I was expecting better things to happen this year but instead it got worst. I always remember her birthday but this time, I wished her three days late TT So disappointing! Then, we also had misunderstandings last month till she avoided me. It took me quite long to realise it and when I did, I give loads of explanation but I think that did not work.

Till now, every time I walk passed her..only the Hello or Hi word and then, walk away. Once in a while, guilt ran over me (wondering what wrong did I do) How I wish I could read her mind. I don't know what is going to happen next man. Haiz


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STORY TWO:

I knew No. 2 last year and shes a year younger than me. She's a really nice girl,from a Chinese school but speaks English very well. We were not that close like no. 1 but more to good friends. But we often sms each other last year and I told all my problems to her. She was like my listener hehe. We got close around after the second semester...I admitted that she was closer to me rather than No. 1 and I know her better than No. 1. We ended the year well. One of the reasons I don't want to leave afternoon session was because of her. hehe We still keep in touch during the holidays.

I thought this year would not be a good year since I won't be able to see her anymore and I started my year BUSY. Everytime after the school bell rang, I will visit her but only sometimes, I will just walk passed her. ONE PROBLEM WAS I SEEM LIKE A TOTAL STRANGER YOU KNOW?! Talking to her seems to be talking to the wall and no greeting at all. What happened?? ( the same question in my mind) Last year, normal only but this year seems to be like two aliens from two different planets. I dare not say its ignoring or avoiding lah! Because I'm sure she will SAY SHE IS NOT IGNORING ME.

Sorry to say, to me...these two stories trouble me all the time. hehe So weird right? Everyone will be saying its a small matter but it seems like a big one LOL Just give me the sweat hehe